Today is public holiday in India. It is 6o clock in the evening. I am standing on the roof of my house. It has started getting some dark. I am feeling very sad. Life looks miserable to me. Every decision, I have taken up to now look wrong. My confidence level is lowest. Feel like a loser, who is not able to achieve anything. Luck looks does not favoring me. Every thing looks confusing. Mind has come to a halt and accepting its defeat. Body, mind and soul all are losing their equilibrium. Getting more frustrated while considering the future. For me no light looks coming from anywhere. It looks as everything is lost. I have never so much sad earlier ever. Then what has happen now.
This may be the frustration of not achieving my desired goals. In this comparing world, found myself losing the grip of my self and my goals. Things have not gone as thought. Friends and relatives success are arises self comparison in me. Feeling shamed of this state. Every body is busy in its life. No help looks coming from any side, making me more and more helpless of this. Why is this to me? I asked this question to the God. What like every time no reply.
Then suddenly my attention goes to a small dog playing in the grass. I know him; he is the same small puppy of street. Puppy is alone, but still he looks very happy. He is rolling here and their. Running on the grass like a mad dog. He looks like a most happy dog on the earth. His face is shinning like God. He looks like the messenger of God. I looked at him and than at myself. Why this difference of happiness is their. Why this dog is happier?
If I compare my self with the dog, than I have much more then him. A job, a house and specially food for the evening. Where as the dog has to look for the food in evening. He has to even fight for the basic thing of life. Chances are that, he has to stays without food tonight. But still he is happy, because he living in this movement. He not concerned about the future. He is enjoying the present. He is not comparing himself with the other dogs. He not frustrated by the happiness of other dogs.
Now by looking at myself, I have realized that I have gone lower to even a small dog. I mental state is even poor than this innocent dog. What has happened to me? I have studied so many things. My knowledge level is much more than this small dog. However in happiness, he is the king and I am bagger. The reason is clear; his happiness depends upon himself and not upon others. He is living in present and enjoying it. He doesnt have the big goals to fulfill. He has no ego to satisfy.
Life is not achieving big dreams or creating wealth. It is much more then this. We lose most of our life in these issues. Most of the time, we are in dreaming about future or worrying some outcome in future. Or we are busy in comparing our self with others. Why? Because we have learned this only. Every body around us is doing the same. Planning about the future is ok. But it should not over burden us. We have to take a lesson from this small puppy and start enjoying our life.
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